When a heart is willing to love, it will find a thousand ways, but when the heart is unwilling, it will find a thousand stupid excuses

Why would you waste a perfectly crafted petals of a flower if you already knew that he loves you NOT?

NOTE: I was being Hypnotized when i’m writing this stuff. haha! Please check my new story blog,  PLUG: AiMacchaito. Thank You Very Much! Lalabbs, Ren

Chapter 1

(first week of the Second semester.)

“how i wished i never loved him missy..”

my best-est friend clarisse told me. well you know, actually, it’s about her and her stupid boyfriend.err.erkey. it’s her X-boyfriend. i told her before that he is not that dreamy-dream prince charming she’s eye-ing. he’s like every damn guys i’ve known. he’ll going to make you love him and left you alone hanging. (well that’s the fact. boys are stupid. throw rocks at them)

well. i don’t have anything to do with her aside from laughing while she’s crying, i’ve decided to go to my other class. i’ve planned to drop that subject.  but then , if i’m going to spend my spare time with clarrise talking about damn stupid things i’d rather go to class and stuck for some history dish.

“well then, clarrise, i have to go.” laughing my ass off. “missy, you’re not funny.” “hey, clarrise. it’s worth the laugh. see yah later girl.” “missy, you’ll going to find your match.” “well then clarisse babeh, bring it on! bye!”

clarisse always makes me laugh. you know that. she’s always predicting something that actually doesn’t happen. funny isn’t. she’s acting like madam auring. (wahaha..) Yes, i am late again. lucky you missy..

and then i forgot. i’m Mitchelle Velarde. weird name though. i like it. friends call me missy,. and clarisse. we’ll she’s my best-est friend as i mention earlier. Clarisse Monteverde. we met during the college freshmen fair. haha.

then im about to enter my room 101. i bumped into someone that leads me to slipped..

“OMG. ms. are you alright?” the weird voice said. i look at him .”are you alright?” he asked again. i stand. “do you think im alright? you’re clumsy. watch where you going!!” i bursted. “hey calm down. i just apologized. okay. im sorry.. you know. im a bit late and..”..

“are you two belong in this class? History?” Mrs. torres asked

“i am. mam” he said.  “how about you missy?” mrs. torres asked “yea. im about to enter and then i bumped into him..” i looked at him with killer eye.  he just smiled.

“well then. would you like to enter now. because you’re kinda interrupting and you’re making a scene..” mrs. torres said.

we both enter the room and sat next to each other, while mrs. torres was explaining. wait. mrs. torres has been my professor last semester in literature.. so that’s why she know me as missy. and the guy is i don’t know.

back to the topic. while mrs. torres is explaining about our first ever project. (yeah, that’s her way..) the guy is really annoying me. he’s actually making apologize over and over that makes that sorry stuck in your head. i just said “okay. okay that’s enough it’s nothing now.” but then he didn’t stop.  i was really really annoyed that i shouted

“OMG! WHUT THE HELL IS WITH YOU GUY! I JUST SAID THAT APOLOGY ACCEPTED. WHY DON’T YOU JUST SHUT UP AND LISTEN. YOU DAMN BASTARD!!”

Mrs. torres and my other blockmates look at us and then saw their weird looks. as if the guy is courting me or whatsoever. i hate it. mrs. torres said that maybe we can continue the project discussion next meeting because she was terribly interrupted and it was all our fault.

we stayed at the room as said by mrs. torres. that was our punishment. you know. my school sucks. i never thought this scene will never happen when you enter college. but then. look where i am now. stuck in this room 101 with this stupid damn guy i bumped in a while ago.

“you two better stay here. im about to leave. you’re so annoying. fixed your misunderstanding.. im hoping that next meeting will be the normal subject time without any interruptions. can you please? thank you very much..” and then mrs. torres leave.

im really embarassed. i think this day would be great because i laughed at clarisse this morning. huh. the silence just stuck in my head. and im kinda sleepy., until.. “hey. can we talk?” he said. “duh! as if were like boyfriends.. can you just please?..” i said. “hey. i just wondering if we can be friends. you know. i was really embarassed by that incident and..” “hey. it’s your fault. you’re continuously saying im sorry and..”

“because your face didn’t agree with what you’re saying..” ”so? what do you mean by that?” ”i mean. you’re not that sincere when you said that apology accepted..” “whut the hell is with you?.. i am sincere. it’s just that. nahh,, never mind. why should i explained. okay. let’s settle this thing straight! IM SORRY..” i said.. “okay! im sorry.. again..” he laughed. “okay. enough.. im going..” i said

“urgh. wait. i’m nate.. you are?” he asked.. “okay.. i’m missy..” i smiled. “so, see yah around?..” he again asked. “okay. i have to go. bye.” “bye..”

okay. he’s nice. i admit. i got moved but then the fact that all guys are just the same stays in my mind. they’re all great at start. sucks in the middle and a big mistake in the end. it’s already 5pm and guess what.! clarisse didn’t wait for me! okay missy you’re going home alone. when i check my cellphone. got text from clarisse

“hey. sis. im about to go home. i don’t feel to go to class. take care. mwah .. se yah tom. Ü”

clarisse.. you’re such soo nice. i’ve got nothing to do then. i’m going home alone.. i walked into the bus stop and waiting for damn bus to come.. i see ugly clouds up there. i think they’re going to cry.. OMG.. wait for me to go home before you cry..

but then the ugly clouds didn’t love me and cry.. i don’t have my umbrella with me. i ran throught the waiting shed in the parking lot. which was far in the bus stop. this day is such. errr. im about to wait until the ugly clouds stop to cry. i was standing alone until someone with an umbrella stood beside me..

“hey. need a ride?” he asked. i looked at him. yes. it was nate. “nah.. i’ll just wait for the rain to stop.” “uhmm. i mean. under this umbrella?” he laughed. “are you?.. whut?” i asked. “im about to go home. but then i saw you. well i guess it would be great if im going to, you know. make it up to you.” “well then mr. nate nice guy. let’s go..” i said. with the thought i can go home early. yey!

“okay then. princess missy.. ” he said. whut just he said? princess missy? yuck! it sucks.. “hey.. it sucks. missy is fine..” i said., “okay. you know. you’re.. ahmm. you’re kinda frank. i’m just wondering if you’re thinking about the feelings of other before, you know. you speak. or deliver words. ” he said. “you know nate. you can say you hate me, it would be great than pretending you like me but you didn’t..” i said. “hey. it’s not like that.” “if it’s fine with you.. have it your own way., don’t mess with me.” i said. “okay, im sorry..” he apologized again..”okay. it’s fine..”

the bus is here.. okay. so now. what im going to do.. he reached his hands to stop the bus and said.. “Missy.. go home safe okay?..”  i don’t know what to reply.. i just smiled and said..”okay. thanks a lot. you too..” when  i entered the bus i saw him waved goodbye at me and again. moved me. OMG. i hate it.

when i arrrived at my home sweet home. i immediately tooked a showe, eat, read and then sleep like this day never happened.

***

Chapter 2

The next morning, i feel like a sloth. i’m late again. when i looked at my alarm clock. it’s 7:30. and my class is 7 sharp. i think i’ll be marked as FDA at my first class.. when i looked at my cellphone. a text from clarisse

“Hey, morning sis. wer are u na?.. it’s already 6:45. 15 minutes more sis. your soo Über late! se yah later. mua.”

clarisse is such an early bird. i guess that’s what i like about her. she never tends to be late. huh. i don’t really want to get up. i feel like i never sleep for 2 days. but then i have to. when i’m about to enter the shower room. i remember nate, “missy, go home safe ok?” what’s with him. err. missy. erase. erase.erase. you’re late. you are incredibly late..

i decided again not to go to my first class cause when i arrived at my school, it’s 08:30.  class dismissal. i walked into the cafeteria and texted clarisse that i’ll be there waiting for her. about a minute or two. there she was. yea. she’s fast. as in. fast.

“hey! sis!” she kissed my cheeks. “hey, so what happened?” i asked. “nothing, just another first project from prof gonzales.” she smiled. “whut the hell? another one?” i asked. “yes. sis. as if. you know his way. he’s just like. hmm.. what’s her name again?.. our professor in literature last sem?”

“mrs. torres clarisse.” i said. “yea.yea. i wonder where she is now.” “you don’t really have to wonder. she’s my prof in history..” “omg. sis! again! haha! wait. i’ll buy some food. what do you want?” she asked. “nahh. pancakes are enough. choco syrup.” “okay. well then. just wait aight?” “aight.”

again. my breakfast is pancakes with choco syrup.that’s what my stomach is craving. always. after 10 minutes. clarisse went back with our breakfast.

“hey sis, what time did you arrived?” she asked while giving me my pancakes. “8:30 sis, “-sigh. “what happened to you?. i mean yesterday? i’m sorry i left you alone. i was really feeling you know. after the break up.” she explained. “nothing sis. terrible day yesterday, i guess that’s my karma for laughing too you that much.” i said. “haha! let’s eat!” she smiled. “okay..”.

i was into thinking that. should i tell clarisse about nate?.. i asked my pancakes , and they didn’t reply.. silly me. okay. imma going to tell her.

“hey sis.” i said.. “whut?..” she asked. “yesterday, i bumped into someone..” “who?..” she asked. “blockmate in history”. “is he? or she?” she asked while laughing. “okay. you got me. i bumped into him and slipped..” “LMAO. sis. you’re crazy..” she said. “no. it was accidentally. his name’s nate..” i said.

“oh.. nate. haha. so?.. how do you find him?” she asked. with her looks that looks like “missy.. it’s your match. ” errh. “well. he’s cute.” i said. “weeeee! that’s it! missy.! it’s your match! you’ll soon be dead, ahah” she laughed. “cut it off! he’s chinito and cute and i don’t like him” i said. “whut the hell?..” she laughed.

“yes clarisse, whut the hell. you know me. hmm.. maybe.. you two can be. you know.. you want to meet him?” i laughed. “missy, your not funny..” she said. “oh c’mon clarisse.. i’ll set you two,, if you two clicked. you’ll going to cooked for me for 1 week. my favorite lasagna.” i said. “and if we don’t clicked?” she asked. “well. it’s up to you..” i said.

“hmm,, i’ll set you two on a date. and i’ll make him fall for you..” she laughed. “hey! that’s over bound.” i said. “okay, then, you’ll going to wash my clothes for one week. complete! with fabric conditioner..” she laughed. “okay. well then. it’s a deal.” i said. “DEAL.”

i wonder if it’s okay. we make a deal and nate doesn’t know about it. is that kinda mean or whut? naah.. the hell he care.. im soo excited about it. nyhahah. clarisse will be dead meat! yes. dead meat.

that afternoon. while i was waiting for clarisse. someone taps me on the shoulder. “hey..” yes, it’s nate. “hey!”  i said. “going home?” he asked. “yes. im waiting for my friend.” i said “i see, so, i have to go. take care aight.” he said. and yes. i remember the deal.

“wait!” i said. “whut?” he asked. “hmm. would you mind if you’ll stay a bit longer? i want to introduce you to my friend..” i said. “okay..is your friend a guy? or a gal? ” he asked. “and why do you asked?” i asked. “well i was just wondering if..” “oh! here she comes!” i said.

“hey sis!” clarisse said. “hey..! clarisse. i want you to meet nate.. remember? the guy who i bumped into yesterday?” i said. “ahh.. yes. so you’re nate. i’m clarisse..” she reached her hand.. “yea! i’m nate..” and he reached his hand too..

“i’m sorry about yesterday. it was an accident that i bumped into missy..” he said. “oh! don’t worry. it’s nothing now. missy is strong. right sis.” she asked. “yeah. right. so. aren’t we going home?” i asked. “so c’mon..” clarisse said.

“so nate. where do you live?.” clarisse asked. nyahaha. nice move sis! this would be great! clarisse will be soon happy and dead meat. okay. im mean. but i guess it’s the only way for clarisse to forget about her stupid ex james. and i have no intention to make nate a “panakip-butas.” but rather to make clarisse happy. i know clarisse know what i’m thinking. and i’m happy that in some point. or rather in many point. she understands me.

were in the bus stop where me and nate stood yesterday.. okay. nate is also.. whut? he’s from clarisse village? OMG. this is it! peerfect as i planned. this would be great. i’ll have my supply of lasagna for one week. i decided to go home by myself and let nate take clarisse home.

“hey guys, i remember i have something to buy. well. see yah around..” i said. “wait, missy. ” clarisse said. “why? ” i asked. “what about?” clarisse looked at nate.. “oh! ah.. nate if you don’t mind.?” i asked. “okay. i’ll take clarisse home. were in the same village aight.” he asked clarisse. ”yea” clarisse said.

“okay then. byee!” i enter the bus and saw again nate waving goodbye.. Whut the hell is with him. yes! missy! it’s a way too fassst! yer stomach will be glad to eat lasagna’s for one week! good job! good job!

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Chapter 3

i just arrived from home.. i wonder if clarisse is already home.. suddenly.. i heard my phone’s beep once.. it’s from clarisse..

“hey sis, this is great. ahmm. i guess. ahmm. hihihi.. Ü”

whut the hell is with her.. wait.. could it be?..nyahahah

“whut the hell are you talking about sis?.. meaning? whut?.. Ö”

clarisse.. reply as soon as possible.. got adrenalin rush.. whoow! i’m excited to hear from you.. nyahaha..

“ok. well. i think. me and nate are going to be good friends.. hihihi..Ü”

GREAT! L-O-V-E MISSY! you’re great! clarisse would be happy.. this much. well. i guess.. haha

“olrayt then.. clarisse.. let’s wait for one week and if it turns out really great.. get ready for my lasagna.. weee..Ö”

PERFECT MISSY..! LASAGNA OVERLOAD. ♥

“hihihi.. okay then sis. thank you soo much.. i beri beri beri much loving you.. Ü”

that’s clarisse.. to easy to fall and out of love..

“okei sis, im about to take a shower.. text u later..Ö”

and she didn’t reply.. you’re a way cool match maker missy. i know me and nate are kinda not that, you know. not that close. but i had this feeling that he’s great than james,i mean. in taking care of clarisse… okay. im a way too fast and kinda. messing around with clarisse. but i guess. im really cool. that’s it! cool.

after i took a shower. again, i read a book. and then sleep. until.. my phone’s beep once.. a message from.. who the hell is this?..

“Hey!! still up?”

whut the hell. stranger..

“hu are u?.. it’s kinda late and you’re annoying me..”

damn.

“missy, haha. your really are missy.. — it’s nate”

whut the hell? nate. again..

“yea. so what do you want? don’t you just realized that it’s late and maybe i’m sleeping or something..”

annoyed babeh~.

“well. i was just wondering if, if it’s alright with you if.. naah.. nevermind..”

again. whut the hell is with him.. wait. could it be.. he’ll going to ask permission to court clarisse? weee..

“wondering what?.. said it straight!-”

nyahahahahaahah…

“wondering if it’s okay with you.. ahmm. okay. i’m going to court clarisse and.. -hehe”

Finally! wahahahahaha.. lasagna for me! yeah. only for me! yeah!

“and you’re kinda asking permission?.. “

yes! good job! good job!

“yea. sort of. ahhmm.. if it’s fine.. -hehe”

okay.. it’s fine nate.. lasagna. lasagna. haha

“it’s fine.. it’s fine.. i’m sleepy.. see yah tom. -take good care of clarisse.. i’ll stab you in the back if you.. >:D”

yes! sweet dreams.. weeee

i heard my phone beep once again but i’d rather sleep. i’m very very much happy.. can’t wait for tomorrow.. weee..

THE NEXT MORNING

as i woke up. i look at my alarm clock and it was 4.30 am. haha. and i’m not that really sleepy.. i rushed in the shower room and clean my room before i go to school.. i remember that i was texting nate last night. i approached my phone and saw one message.. yes from him, replied.

“thanx missy, sweetdreams..”

okay. whut the hell. delete.delete.delete. and after a while. i decided to go to school..

i was waiting for clarisse in the cafeteria. it’s 06:00am.. okay. i’m kinda. early.. ner. im early. haha. because i can’t wait to hear from clarisse.. wee.. lemme think. maybe now. nate is waiting for clarisse. and they’ll go to school together.. aww swiit.!

“hey sis!!!!” clarisse shouted.. “OMG! clarisse. you scared me!!” i said. “oh, i’m sorry sis. sis. sis. this is it!” she exclaimed. “erkey! i knew it. i knew it! so, what happened yesterday?..” i asked.

so, clarisse was happily telling the whole stuff about yesterday.. t’was..

after i leave. nate decided to treat clarisse in a hamburger stand and they talked about their personal info’s.. exchange numbers and laugh at their favorite joke. weh. way too corny..

“and then sis, he asked about you..” clarisse said. “huh?.. whut the fuck?” i asked. “yes, how we’d met. why is it that you’re too frank. everything about you. and yer number.” clarisse. zip in her juice.. “err. why?..” i asked. whut the hell. “he said that it would be great if he knew also. about you because you’re with me all the time.. weeeee.., missy.. i really love you sis.. ” she said. “erkey.. that’s good.” huh.great nate. you’re such a trash, ”hey sis! it’s 7. i have to go. see yah later..!” clarisse said while waving her hands.

i remember that my class is. OMG. i’m so early today. my only class is the History dish. huh. t’was 3:30 PM. great. i’ve decided to go to the library.. and look for new arrival of novels.. weee..

okay.. i’m here.. so lemme see. there’s nothing new here. huhuhu. i’m doomed. there’s nothing new.. tsk. i’ve decided to just. sit and read magazine. huhuh..

suddenly,, someone sit in front of me. yes. your thinking it right. it was nate. again..

“hey!” he said. “hey!” i said.. “so, how was it going?” he asked. “nahh. don’t bother me..” i said. “okay, im sorry.” he said. but he’s still sitting there and. he’s staring at me like he wants to eat me alive..

“hey! cut it out!!” i said..”whut?..” he asked. “stop staring at me!!” i said.. “it’s just that, you’re not talking to me..” he said.. “and why would i? got nothing to talk about..” i said. “there is..” he said. “erkey.. what was it?” i asked. “yer not sleepy last night right?” he asked. “erkey. about that thing. i said it’s okay.. so please..” i said.. “oh c’mon missy. your not angry or anything.. or thinking that t’was a way too fasst or.. something..” he said.. “nate.. are you hallucinating? what would i think of something like that?” i asked.. “ahmm. missy. yer not jealous or anything?” he asked.

Okay! this is enough! i stand.. “nate. let’s talk outside..” i walked towards the door and as we went out. i bursted “nate! are you really nuts or what?.. why would i be jealous or something?.. your kinda really. damn!”… “hey, missy, calm down. i was just wondering if your going to be jealous because, clarisse time will be you know. ” he said. “you know what?” i asked. and i let my face moved into hims. “whut?” he asked. “I DONT CARE! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT! JUST DON’T HURT MISSY..” and i went down..

i was really. i don’t know. maybe i heard it all right but think of it wrong. what’s happening with me. no missy. there’s nothing wrong with you. there’s nothing wrong with you. nate’s a mistake. nyahaha..

that afternoon in our history class. nate greeted me and so i was, mrs. torres and my blockmates was kinda. weird looks cause we’re doing fine then. like there’s nothing happened.

before mrs. torres dismiss us. she said that.. “okay. today was great. how i wish every meeting is like this..” she looked at us.. “okay then class.. dismiss”.

i was about to leave the room. nate approached me.. “hey missy,,” he said.. “yea?..” i asked. “sorry about this morning..” he said.. “nah.. t’was nothing..” i smiled. and leave. “wait!– “. “what do you want?.. c’mon! what is it?” i asked. “ahmm. are you? going home? well. i was just thinking maybe.. if it’s alright with you to eat merienda with me.. MY TREAT!” he smiled.

i looked at my watch and t’was 05:15. “hmm. erkey then. is clarisse..” “no. she went home already.. her father picked her up..” he said. “oh great.” i said. “she told me to take you home.. ” he said. “yea. don’t worry. i can take care of myself..” i said.  ”soo.. let’s eat?” he asked. “erkey..” i said.

we decided to eat in the ice cream stand and fishball stand. nate is fun to be with. he’ll going to talked to all the people around him. and yeah. all of them adores him. not me. err. not me. erkey. i quite adore him. -errhehreh.fhdfhgjkhf. waah,

it’s 7:00 and i think. nate’s tired of laughing. i laughed at him..

“whut?” he asked..”it’s just that. you looked like you’ve lost from a million dollar game show. hahahahha..” LMAO. “ehehe. missy, your much cuter when you laughed.” he said. serious. me = shocked. “whut the hell. let’s go home..” i said. “erkey..”

im about to enter the bus. but he entered before me. OMG. he’s really taking me home. clarisse. where are you. i’m stuck in him. eeer.

we sat, he let me sit first and then he sat. i was not into talking. and so he was. i’m quite sleepy.. i yawned. “you look like a cat.-” he said. err! snapped! “nate, it’s not funny.” i said. “im not joking..” he said. “whut the hell?!” and i just realized that our face is an inch apart. OMG. damn. i turn my head into another direction. and sleep.

i can feel him. he let me sleep in his soulder. okay. i was playing deaf.numb.dead and. eeer. i hate it. until i fell asleep.

“missy.. missyy.. wake up.. here we are..” nate’s whispering voice. “huh? where?..” i asked. “were about to get off the bus. wait..” he said. and he went into manong driver and stop the bus. “missy. c’mon..” he said. “erkey..”

we get off the bus and walked towards my home. it was an hour trip yah know.. and i feel like i got charged. haha. erkey.

“hey. nate. how do you know that.”. “i asked clarisse remember?.. i bet she told you about it.-” he said. “erkey..-hehe. thanx.” i said. without being too yah know. “it alright. i think it’s much better if you’re like that. -haha”  he said. “are you annoying me?..” i asked. “nope, erkey, im sorry.” “hmm. nate. here we are.. i’m sorry if i can’t let you enter. t’was late. my dad will get angry and..”. “it’s okay. don’t bother aight.. goodnight missy..” kissed my forehead, “whut the hell?.. ” i burst., “ergh. im sorry. ergh. bye.,” he ran.. “nate! take care.” i shouted. what’s with him. aww.

i’m dead. im going to tell this to clarisse.. honestly is the best policy.

***

Chapter 4

NATE’S 101

—–… huh.. im dead.. i kissed missy’s forehead.. argh. i guess i’m really. argh. i don’t know. no! no! nate. clarisse is more fun to be with than missy. missy is frank. missy is sort of a band girl– no! missy is fine. missy is cute. missy. is. ergh. i hate it..

i liked clarisse. a lot. —- and missy?.. ergh. no. this couldn’t be happening. from the first place. i hate missy. cause she’s not my type. obviously.. and clarisse is my girl. okay. i’m about to tell clarisse. that i liked her and i want to court her before something bad happens.

i don’t think this is fast. though it looks like. damn.. i have to call clarisse.. now. now. now.

so i get my phone and called clarisse..

“hiee.. nate!”

she answered.

“hey! so, how was it going?.. i just. missy.-”

damn.

“whut?.. haha. so. you took missy home?”

yeah.yeah. huh.

“yes. i just took her home.– you? haw are you?.. you see. i want to ask you something and..–”

okay then nate. said it straight.

“erkey. what is it?.. “

errr. i don’t think it’s a good idea. no! it’s a good idea.

“look clarisse. ahmm.. ahmm. well, i just want to ask if it’s okay with you. if.”

ok. c’mon nate! said it. argh! watever!

“if.. whut nate?.. Ü”

okay.. nate. it’s not the right time.-

“if. maybe. i can pick you up tomorrow before school?..–hehe”

you’re a loser nate.

“sure.. i’ll be waiting for you..Ü”

great. –sigh..

“okay then.. see yah tomorrow.. =)”

ok. i just don’t get it. i almost said it but. there’s something that blocked me from saying it. okay. maybe i need more time. i’m confused. it was so sudden that i bumped into this frank girl and then i met her bestfriend and then . now what! ergh. i want to get out from this. ok.

it was fast. it was sudden. can i ask for a rewind. damn. damn

CLARISSE’S 101

YEA!! YEA!! he’ll going to pick me up tomorrow.. yea! sis! you’re such a winner. hmm. i’ll be telling this to missy tomorrow. haha. i want to surprise her. this is great. i’ll cooked the best lasagna ever for my ever dearest best-est friend.. weeee..

i’m sooo into him.. haha. james. thank you so much for leaving me. for hurting me.. it’s all worth the hurt. hahahah.. weee.

***

Chapter 5

that night. i can’t sleep. i just can’t. i’m thinking about the kiss. in someway. it looks like i’m old and he’s my grandson. haha. funny though. but in some point. it kept me thinking. what’s the meaning of that sudden kiss. nate you’re so stupid. you probably think that i’m that type. you’re a loser. i should tell this to clarisse tomorrow. it looks like i’m a bit. yah know. yeah. yah know what i mean.

i really can’t sleep. my everynight routine broke because of that stupid forehead kiss. i’ll kill you nate! you ruined everything. huh. i’m overreacting.. hmm. maybe. nate’s just. carried away. yea. maybe he was..

–beep!

text message. maybe it’s clarisse.. i should tell her.!

–opening…

“hey missy,!”

oh! great! crap! it’s him!

“whut?.–”

whut the hell.

“hmm. i’m sorry about the kiss. it’s not my intention. yah know. yeh.yeh.”

nate your a loser.

“nah. it’s alright. just don’t do that again. you’re not in a position. so. change topic. did you ask clarisse about the stuff?..”

yea. that’s the only way..

“nah- that thing can wait. i just asked her if i could picked her up tomorrow.. yeah know. step by step process.. –hehe”

great!

“great, so?.. i bet she said “erkey, i’ll be waiting for you. or. sure. great” hahaha”

crap!

“yea! she did! i bet she told you about it.?”

oh. she did? hahaha. funny. damn.,

“ner. it’s her way. yah know. clarisse stuff. –hehe”

“so, why is it that you still.. awake.?”

“i can’t sleep.”

yeah. it’s all because of you. you ass head.

“drink milk. or pray. or. -hehe”

“or?.. are you nuts..”

“no, i’m nate.. so, if that’s the case, i can accompany you till you.. -hehe”

“no need.. now i’m sleepy..”

“sudden. -haha. owkay, goodnight missy..”

nah! crap you nate! i have no time for this. i should sleep. i’m getting ugly. very funny missy.. i can’t sleep. i can’t sleep.

well. i just can’t sleep.. i really have to tell this to clarisse. erkey. i’ll text her. if she replied. i’ll tell. if not. some other time, maybe..

“hey sis! still up?.. i have something really important to tell you.. Ö”

argh.. 10 minutes after. she replied. yes! great

“sis, ca’t wit till tomw?.. m slepig.. .”

whut the fuck. erkey. it’s.. sis. can’t wait till tomoroow?.. i’m sleeping…

errrrr! clarissee.. i hate you sis. huhuh. i wan’t my lasagna.

and then morning came. and i’m still awake. i looked at myself in the mirror. and i looked like a. whut the hell. a panda. T.T. i’m the panda of the day.. i walked down and my dad burst and said “dear. what happen to you..?” yeah. what do they expect me to say. i didn’t sleep. i just can’t sleep. nwei. i saw the calendar and it’s ohhh.. thank god it’s friday.. community service day.. half-day babeh~. i’m going to sleep later as soon as i arrived home. then. missy. hit the day.. even though you looked like a panda. hahaha..

AT SCHOOL.

i was very.very sleepy. texted clarisse,

“sis. im in the caff. you better be here.. 10mins. i’m screwd.-Ö”

after 10 minutes. clarisse arrived with. yea. NATE..

“OMG. sis. whut happen to you?..” she laughed. “nahh. cut it out sis. can’t you see. i looked like a panda. grrr.” i said. “you didn’t sleep?.. ” she asked. yea. and nate is just laughing at me. “you’re a one freak panda!” nate said. “hey nate! stop! you’re not funny..” clarisse said. “why?.. you just laugh didn’t you?”nate said. “erkey! it’s enough! it’s erkey..” i said.

“so sis, what is it that you’re going to tell me?..” clarisse asked. “hmm.” i looked at nate.. i can sense nate’s look. saying.. “no, missy. not now. not now.” sigh.. “hmm. sis. i just can’t sleep. -haha!”. i said. yeah. erkey. i’m dead. “is that all?.. you texted me that late and that’s all? OMG. missy. you’re crazy..-hahhaa!” yeah. clarisse.. i’m crazy.. i laughed.

BELL~~~~~~

“erkey guys, i have to go. nate. take good care of missy. see yah later..” and clarisse left.. erkey. here we are. again. the two of us. he’s looking at me.  “so, are you going to laugh again or what?..”  i asked. “no, why didn’t you just tell”. “i just realized it would be better if not. clarisse is a one jealous crap.. let’s just keep it a secret from her and just forget what happened” i said. can’t you see. it’s the only way.. “owkay.. so.. ” he said. “so what?..-”. “do you want anything? coffeee? or whut?..”. he asked. “i want you to evaporate!! evaporate nate! evaporate..~~~~~~~~~~~”

BELL RINGSSSS….

i woke up. whut the heck. where am i?.. “you fell asleep. i took you here.” nate said. CLINIC. “i see,–” i sit. “err! i’m feeling dizzy. where’s clarisse?”i asked. “she’s buying merienda..–” he said. “huh?.. why she?.. your supposed to be..”. “yea. but she said that, i don’t know your favorite snack. so she insisted that she’ll be the one.” nate explained. “great!” - lay down again.

“hey!” he said. “whut?.. can you just shut up?” i said. “why is it that your always.. err. nevermind. then , this morning you want me to evaporate. what’s with you?..” he asked. i sit.. “can’t you see. i just want you to court clarisse. well. yes. and i don’t want you to bother me. your a crap.” i said and lay down again. “yes. i’m going to court her. i just want an assurance..”. “what assurance?” i sit again. “assurance what?!!” i asked. “hmm. if it’s really fine with you. err.”. “whut the hell nate! how many times..”. “ok. enough.–” he stand and walked out the door.

huh! stupid nate!!i don’t really get him.. why is it that.. he’s thinking about those stuff. i hate him.. yeah.

BEEP ONCE—

“hey sis. i’m going. dad called me and i really need to go home.. pls. tell nate about it. i’m sorry,i’m sorry. i’ll make it up to you some other time.. lurvee.. mua.”

oh! great! again. i’m stuck in nate’s. then he walked in again and told me about clarisse..

“so, i’ll take you home?..” he asked. “no..” i said. “erkey,” and then he walked away.. well. i see his face. shocked. but it’s the only way i can get rid of him. i’m feeling funny here inside. and that must be stop. as in now. cause i don’t want clarisse to be hurt. i just don’t want. and i want my lasagna.

***

Chapter 6

well. there we go. we met again at the lobby of the building and then. went off in separate ways. i don’t know. it feels like. i somehow lost something or what.. i hate this feeling. i never felt this before. errgh. OMG. i really need to go home. i reaally need.

AT THE BUS STOP

again. i saw nate. but he didn’t look at me. erkey. so what. i don’t care. all i care about is my best-est friend and my lasagna. i reached my hand to stop the bus. i enter and sit. i saw someone searching for a place to. so i moved. when i looked in. it was HIM. erkey. getting into my nerve. i really hate him. why he needs to act like this?.. erkey. to settle this straight.

“nate.” i said. “yea?..-”. he’s face is like. tired. “can i ask you something?..” i asked. “what?..”. “why you need to do all these stuff?..”. “what stuff?-”. “this stuff. i said that don’t bother to take me home. i said leave me alone. and then again. you’re here. whut the hell is with you?..”. “you really wanna know why?..”.

“yes! because i’m bothered that maybe..”. “because. i don’t want to dissapoint clarisse. she told me that i should also take good care of you..”. erkey, i don’t know what to feel. it’s.. strange.. “erkey, it’s just that you don’t need to do all this. i should talk to clarisse about..”.  “don’t. i love what i’m doing..” me is shocked. moved. “huh, crap ass.” .. “yea,”. eeerr! “nate! whut the hell! leave me alone!! —”. i point into other direction. and stuck myself there. he didn’t respond. yeah.

the whole trip is like.. a.. errg. the silence just rushing into my eardrums. i don’t know. im confused. really. what is this that i’m feeling.. erkey! this would be the last! yes! this would be the last..—-!

we get off the bus and walked through my home. “erkey, nate, ” i said. “yea?”. he asked. “this would be the last erkey?.. you really don’t need to bother. i can take care of myself. and aside. it’s not me that you’re going to court or what.”. “so..?” he asked. “tell me! whut the hell is with you?.. you’re really irritating me. you’re getting into my nerves!!.”. “missy.. i also. don’t know.. “. he said.

“huh?.. are you really that stupid?..” me asked. “no. it’s just that. there’s a part of me telling that i should take you home..” he said. “erkey,, -, were here. so, i have to go. take care. and please. this would be the last aight.?” me asked.. “ok.. =D, gudnyt missy..”. and i just smiled. huh. what do he expect me to say?., gudnight too nate?.. duh!.. i should call clarisse..

-calling..

“hi sis!–”

“sis! OMG. are you home?..  i’m sorry. i was-”

“sis. calm down. yes. i have something to talk about-”

“what is it sis?.. c’mon-”

“sis. i just want to. yea know. nate is so irritating-”

“why sis?.. ”

“he always bother to take me home. and–”

“he did?.. -”

whut the fuck.

“yes. he said that he don’t want to dissapoint you. because you told him that he should also take good care of me.. and-”

“yes. sis. i told him that he should also take good care of you. but not to the extend that.-”

silence..

“whut the hell. sis. are you there?.. it’s just that..-”

“why you need to tell all these stuff??.. why you need to tell me that nate is always taking you home?..sis?”

“sis. it’s not like that. it’s just that he said that you said that-”

“argh. sis. ”

silence

“oh. c’mon clarisse. you know me. it’s not what your thinking.. sis. look. hey. sis.”

“nahh.. talk to you tomorrow.. imma sorry..”

she hanged up- whut the hell. OMG. errgh. now what. yes. nate again. ruined my ngiht. and i think. no. he’s ruining our friendship.. what to do now.  great. again. i can’t sleep. i really want to talk to clarisse. but. everytime i try to call her. yes. the subsriber cannot be reached.. freakin operator.OMG. im dead.

***

Chapter 7

OMG. what should i do?. ergh. erkey. straight to the point! i’m going to call nate!

–calling

Oh c’mon nate! pick up!

“hey, missy. why you calling?..”

“hey nate. i want to clarify something.. i just called clarisse and”

“i told you not to tell her.”

“huh?.. i don’t understand..”

“can’t you see. you said that she’s a jealous crap and”

“so. you lied. huh. great nate.”

“look, im sorry ok. it’s just that. i want to see if”

“huh. if what nate?”

“if, yea know. missy, i had this weird feeling and”

“i have that too.”

“you do?”

“yea.”

silence..

“missy. i’m just not sure if you feel the same way but now that i know. maybe, we could”

“no.”

OMG..

“no? what do you mean by no? .”

“urgh. can’t you see.. i don’t like you..”

“yea right missy, you don’t like me huh. very funny.”

“yes.  actually nate. i don’t like this.”

“but you said you’re feelin kinda weird too and”

“yes. but i guess. it’s just not like that.”

“ok. missy. what do you want me to do? ignore ?”

“precisely nate. ok. act as if nothing really happens erkey?.. act as if we didn’t talk. erkey? bye.”

i hanged up. just as i thought. missy you’re a crap. huh. i don’t like nate? no. i like nate?. no. i hate nate. i don’t like him. he’s for clarisse and.–

me = crying

oh. great. another tear fall and i’ll kill myself. OMG. i just can’t stop it. hahaah. i can’t sleep. huhuhuhh.. clarisse. what should i do. pls. call. help me. huhuhuhh.. lasagna where are you.. huhuh.. yea. and i remember. i’m asleep all day. yea. My community service day. huhuh, OMG. i’m doomed.

–beep

“hey missy. it’s just that.”

yeah. great! it’s nate! ergh. Switch off.– i turned off my phone. i don’t care if clarisse will call. i just don’t want to receive messages from nate. i’m going to change my number!

NEXT MORNING

i don’t have enough sleep but life goes on. haha. what the hell. it feels like. nah. nevermind. haha. forget about yesterday. weee. i remember. i open my phone and.. what the fuck! 15 messages. 10’s from nate and 5’s from clarisse. i opened first from clarisse.

“Hey sis! i’m sorry. yea know. i was jealous and i can’t accept the fact that nate is always taking you home–”.

“sis. it’s just that. i really liked nate but i guess. yeah. you’re the first who introduced me to him and you’re the first who gets to know him and i don’t have any right to yea know. act like that because in the first place. where not dating. but you two are not dating also?..”

“sis. im really sorry. i’m calling you. but your phone’s turned off . sis. i’m sorry. i’m really really sorry. let’s forget about the deal. im really going to bake your lasagna.. pls. sis. call me when you read this. lurve.”

“sis. nate just called me.”

OMG. and then after i opened the last message. i started to cry. again.. it’s said..

“sis, nate wants to court me. he said he asked permission and you said it’s ok. i lurve you sis. i told him about the deal but he said that it’s ok now. he didn’t care about it at all. he said that he really wants to take you home because your special to me and we talked about that stuff. now it’s ok. sis. now. you don’t really have to worry about it. i’m going to give your lasagna. i’m going there ok sis?.. hmm. what about. 2 pm? are you free? please sis. call me. thanx. lurve. me and nate’s coming.. *mua.”

OMG. i looked at my clock and it’s 10AM. smiled. i wipe my tears. i’m going to get my lasagna. weeee! –sigh..

but i guess. it would be better, yea know. i’m not into relationship. no more. i was hurt before and i don’t want to hurt again. and i really can’t remember saying Iloveyou to the opposite sex. duhHell. yes. everything going to be alright missy. i decided to just leave nate’s messages. hmm. i just didn’t read it. maybe later. after i received my lasagna. wee.. –sigh.

2PM-SHARP

“sis!!! we’re coming!!” i heard clarisse voice. it’s coming nearer and nearer. she opened the door! “suprisee!!! hahaha!” she hugged me.”hey! yey! my first lasagna.. weee!”. “hey!-” nate said. “hey!,” i said. “so, why your cellphone’s turned off?, were’s your phone?” clarisse asked. “nah. it’ lowBat. getting charged.” me said “erkey. so you read about the stuff?” she looked at nate and smiled. and nate smiled too.”yea. i read it. i’m so happy for you..” i hugged her. i saw nate’s face. it’s like.. so missy you. also read mine’s? i just ignored him and smiled again at clarisse.

“sis. we’re going out. do you want to come?,. ” clarisse asked. “i don’t want.” i said. “why sis?” she asked. “chaperone? -hahahah!” i laughed. “ergh. sis. it’s not like that..” she said. “clarisse.. i’m just going to eat my lasagna here. okey.. be happy! ” i whispered. “erkey sis! thank you soo much! lurve you..” she hugged me again..

“i lurve you too,” i said. “so, nate. let’s go?” clarisse asked. “yea.” he replied. “nate. take good care of clarisse. aight!” i asked. “sure! ” he smiled. OMG. he smiled. tuck!- “bye sis!”..”bye..”

and after they leave. i read nate’s messages. aside from the missy it’s just that

“missy. can you just reply? i just want to talked to you..”

“ok. i’m going to ignore everything.. it’s just that. there’s something that’s blocking me when i want to yea know. asked clarisse about the stuff.”

“missy. look. i guess. i like you. i really do. and it gets stronger each day and.. please missy. respond.”

OMG. no.

“i’m trying to call you. missy. why you’re acting like that. you said that. ok. you said that there’s something weird too but you didn’t said that you like me”

“missy. respond. missy..”

“ok. you don’t like me. then. i’m going to pursue clarisse. i know. it’s what you want. and. i like you so. i’m going to.”

“im going to call clarisse. missy. i guess this would be the last..”

“missy. i just asked her and she said if it’s okey with you. then i said it’s ok. and yea. i’m officially courting her. she’s different from you. actually. i really like her. but in some other stuff. and i just like you. ergh. okey. im sorry. i’m going to forget about our stuff.”

“she told me about the deal. it’s ok now. don’t worry. im not going to bother you anymore. sorry missy..”

“im really sorry missy..”

yea. and there it was. i erased it all. and i don’t want to read it again. i’m happy for clarisse. knowing the fact that nate confessed his feelings. how brave. haha. but then. ergh. nevermind. i have my lasagna now. and i’m feeling. something lacking here. but . really. i do have my lasagna.

***

Chapter 8

NATE’S 101

Yea. i just asked clarisse. and yea. things turn out fine. i guess missy doesn’t like me. but then. i want her to clarify it to me. i want her to say she don’t like me straight in my very own eyes.

and just as clarissed planned. we went straight into missy’s. yea. i fetch her. when were in missy’s place. it feels like. yea. i felt like. my hearts been there. ergh. you’re stupid nate. wake up! i saw her. her eyes is like. argh. yea know the “i just cried really hard last night and i can’t help it look”. yea. it looks like that. but then totally ignored it. i bet she read my text messages cause she already read clarisse. but then she ignored me. huh. yea. what do i expect from her. i just confessed last night and i got nothing but i don’t like you and stuff.

nate. just focused on clarisse. i know you like her. you’re just confused because you’ve been really attached to this bumped girl you met. haha. . and now we’re leaving. missy’s not coming. she’s going to eat her lasagna. haha. i imagined on how she’s going to eat it. hahaha.

we’re really leaving.. im leaving missy. yes missy. im going to take good care of clarisse. it was supposed to be you. ergh. ok. it’s not. bye missy. see yah around..

CLARISSE’S 101

whut the hell?.. nate’s always. missy. ergh. somethings fishy. thus nate like missy?.. thus he like me? which? who?. ergh. i’m confused. i really like nate. but if he likes missy then i’ll set him free. i also want missy to be happy yea know. huh. i want clarification.  argh.! you two just speak up if there’s something between the two of you. im not a psychic.

suddenly. saw my fone. nate’s calling me. yea. he do likes me. he asked if it’s ok to court me and i said yes and if it’s ok with missy.. yea. i hurriedly contact missy but her fone’s okay. cannot be reached. well. i just leave her a message–s.. weee. i;m soo happy..

the next morning. i bet she read about my message–s.. and got adrenalin rush when i came running to her room. her eyes is soo not. what just happened.? but then i prefer not to ask. she;s just soo happy when i gave her the lasagna. i asked her to come along but then she turned me down. oh missy. aww bad! T.T but then. seeing her like that makes me feel. i’m so lucky to have missy here. i’m so really reeally lucky..!

***

Chapter 9

yea. they’re so cute together. ahihi. i was really happy for clarisse. maybe nate’s just not for me. haha. but i wonder. what will it be if.. nahh! nevermind. haha..

i looked at my clock and it’s 7pm. ergh. im out of books here. i’m going to the bookstore and buy some mushy books. haha. leave a note for mom and dad..

“hey! cool ‘rents! i’ll be going to the bookstore. haha.. lurve..lurve–missyboi”

OMG.. the winds.. just like.. ahmm. it feels like the wind in the seashore. haha! i remember! t’was october. yea. christmas is really comin.. haha. and here i am at the bookstore.. let’s see. hmm. while i was surfing into the new arrivals. the phone’s vibrating.. yea. it’s..

nate’s calling–

“hello..”

“hey! so what’s up..”

“i’m fine. erkey nate. what do you want?”

“i just want to talked to you.. can i go there to yer place?”

“i’m not home..”

“much better. i mean. where are you?”

“bookstore.. look. just leave me alone erkey..”

“missy. i just want to clarify something.. even for the last time? pleeasee?”

“erkey, granted..!”

i don’t know but there’s this force that just let me allowed him to talk to me. OMG. after a while. i saw him. he entered and

“missy..” he smiled

“nate.. and where the hell is clarisse?”

“i just took her home..” he smiled

“so. how’s yer date?–”

“it’s fine. but. it’s more fine if.”

“oh c’mon nate! cut it out!”

“missy..”

“hey! look!”

i saw a book entitled SPRING 101 .. when i read about the summary.. it’s.. OMG. it’s like ours. yea. definitely. me,clarisse and nate’s story.OMG. should i buy it or what?.

“so?.. what about that book?–” he asked.

“hmm. i want to buy it. haha! erkey. let me buy it.”

“how much missy? maybe i can”

“oh! no! nate! i’m going to buy this. don’t bother.”

“missy.”

“nate. you just said that you’ll not going to bother me anymore. remember? haha!”

“erg. missy. it’s just that–”

“nate. please. wait. i’ll buy this.”

nate waited for me outside the bookstore, i don’t know. but it feels like. i’m safe. and i’m really buying the book. whut the hell. there’s this thinking that maybe. i can get something from this book. yea. it’s kinda weird. it’s like. there’s someone out there who knew that this was going to happen. erkey missy. enough of your mushy thinking cause nate is waiting for you outside.

“hey! — thanks for waiting..”

“it’s nothing.. so would you mind if.- yea know. coffee?”

“let me see.” i looked at my watch. “erkey..”

“alright! i want you to ask something..”

“erkey..”

i was expecting him to treat me at starbucks but we ended up in the park and he just get a can of coffee into that machine stuff. erkey. missy. expect the unexpected!

“so, you’re expecting what?–” he said

“huh?.. ” Yea! he got me.

“your looks just –”

“erkey.erkey. you got me. well. i was expecting that you’re going to treat me at starbucks and”

“are you dissapointed?–”

“ahm. not really. ahmm. not at all. it’s just that-”

“missy. i mean. the stuff?” he looked at me and zip his coffee.

“hmm. about the stuff?..” i zip too. “no. not at all.why would i?”

“remember? i just confessed to you last night and yea know. missy. i really like you. its-”

“why are you telling me this stuff?.. i mean. nate. i don’t care. i said i don’t like you.”

“missy. it hurts.” he smiled.

“nate it’s not right.” i said.

“missy. tell me something i don’t know.-”

“nate. i.. i don’t know something you don’t know.”

“i know there’s something i don’t know.” he said. but he wasn’t looking at me.

“i don’t know nate! i just don’t know!”

“so can i just ask you?” he looked at me and then look into another direction.

“yea. sure. much better than guessing something you don’t know.”

“why is your eyes like that? i mean. this morning. it looks like you cried all night and-”

“erkey. stop. i’ll explain- it’s like this. i was testing this maskara and it irritates my eyes and-”

“missy. you’re lying– c’mon. tell me something i don’t know”

“huh! nate! i told you. i don’t know something you don’t know.”

“yes. missy. because i know something you already knew.” he said

“yea right stupid crap!. you’re annoying me.” i start crying..

“see. did i told you to cry?” he asked.

“ner. it’s just that. you’re putting me in this pressure and”

swiiisssshhh! he hugged me.

“missy. i know you like me too! but you prefer to hid that for clarisse right?”

he’s calm. he’s warm

i nodded. and still crying..

“missy. i just want to know what’s on your mind. i have no idea on what’s buggin into you. i just want to know.”

“erkey.. erkey.. i’ll tell. just promised me you won’t leave clarisse..” still crying here .

“yes. i promise.” he said. and he still holding me..

“last night i cried cause yes. you said that there’s this weird feeling too. and i have that too and i don’t know. just thought that it would be unfair to clarisse if yea know. and this morning after you leave i read your text message and there again you are confessing and i don’t know i just cried and i don’t know.really i don’t know.., i guess. i like you too but i don’t know..” still crying..

“missy. ” he huggs me so tight. as if he doesn’t want me to let go.

after a while. well then there we are. sitting at the bench and laughing at each other flaws and acting like there’s nothing happen..

“nate, ” i said

“yea?..” he looked at me.

“hey. don’t look at me like that. you’re annoying~~” i laughed

“ok. so what is it?”

“thank you.” i smiled.

“haha! missy. thanks for what?!” he smiled

“well. for making clarisse happy, and me too. yea know.”

“know what?”

“if. i’ll be given a chance to be with somebody.. i’ll choose you. it’s just that. i feel really safe when i’m with you.” i said.

“so.. do you want me to stop courting clarisse.?”

“hey! it’s not like that! continue what you’ve started. if ever. there is. nate. erkey. let’s be friends erkey?” i said..

“sure missy. but i really like you. haha”

“ohh! stop! haha. i’m going home–”

“should i take you home?”

“no need. erkey. haha!”

“erkey, just be safe..” he pulled me and kiss my forehead.

“nate. again.” i laughed.

“yea! that’s your protection.” he smiled.

and i kissed his cheeks.lol. he’s kinda shocked.

“err! don’t think something. it’s your protection too! bye! take good care of clarisse, i’m counting on you..”

“yea! bye missy.” he smiled.

“bye..” i smiled

as i go leavin him there, i felt relief. i guess the saying,, revealing your feeling is the beginning of healing means. and i’m going to read the SPRING 101 and eat lasagna.

***

Chapter 10

That night. i felt like. i really need to start waking up and saving the day before bedtime. haha. like the powerpuff girls! yea. silly me. i remember i don’t have lasagna. haha. yea. im quite. voracious. XD

but then. i prefer to be serious and read the book.

i finished the book cause i’ve been reading that all night long and got something from it. i’ll tell you the summary..

SPRING101: THE SUMMARY

t’was summer when klein and janine met. they become the best of friends. as if they’ve known each other since kindergarten. they attend the same college together. klein has been inlove before and got sick of hurtings. while janine never stop until she met her prince charming..

one afternoon at school, klein bumped into this guy named josh. she hates him so much. causing him so much trouble and everything, while josh is hating her so much but feels something from the very start. they’ve become friends and start getting to know each other. until klein introduced janine to josh.

janine told klein that she was struck by the love at first sight spell on josh. and klein decided to set up the two of them but there’s something inside her that make her feel unease whenever janine is telling about josh and everything..

meanwhile.

josh was like meeting two princess in a fairy tale. he thought of courting one of them. he thought that if he’ll going to court klein, it would be, he don’t know because,.

he thought that maybe. he doesn’t want to mess up with klein’s life, and actually klein is not his type. and in the case of janine, she’s like every average girl in town. long haired, sweet and the perfect girlfriend material.

he decided to court janine but he asked permission first to klein. it turned out fine. but then whenever josh is on the track of asking janine of the courting stuff. there’s this force that blocking him to ask.. he then preferred not to until he’ll find answers.

he started to get along with klein. took her home everynight. ate lunch with her. laugh with her with the simpliest and shallow jokes she said and everything she’ll do. janine started to smell something. as if there’s between her bestfriend and her prince charming.

janina confronted klein if there’s something really going on between josh. klein was confused and doesn’t know what to respond. until janine cried and told her that she was actually in love with josh. klein felt like a wicked witch and a hypocrite.

she decided to talk to josh about janine’s feelings and settle things straight between them. josh confessed to klein that he actually like her and klein had the same confession but klein decided not to go on with them, she said that she don’t want her bestfriend to cry because of her.

josh really understand their situation, he asked janine about the courting stuff and it turned out fine knowing the fact that he actually like klein.

every other day janine and josh hangs out with each other. until one night. janine talked to josh about their relationship.

janine asked if ever. josh will be her boyfriend what would their relationship will be. janine said that she knows that josh like her bestfriend. josh can’t answer. but his eyes telling janine that it was true.

janine decided to let josh go and talked to klein. she said that she actually know the real score between the two of them. she really doesn’t want to mess up with josh and klein’s life.

klein cried and hugged janine. janine got happy for seeing that. she managed to set up the two on a date.

josh and klein met up and talked about the stuff. turned out fine and go on as if there’s no more hindrances.

janine then prefer to stay beside the two of them until she met someone who’s really her prince charming..

erkey. the story was like a typical love-friendship story. but i guess. this would never happen to us. haha. what i’ve learned is that. maybe love is really waiting for us. very funny. and the old-saying that. don’t search for love. let love search for you was really annoying. haha.

why would love search us?.. what’s the real meaning of that?.. OMG. this was really confusing.. haha.. do you know the answer?.. well for me. i don’t know. is love a detective or what? haha.. very funny. very silly.

well then there goes nothing.. i’ll just go with the flow. and besides. me and nate settled things and maybe i’m going to meet him someday.. and.. i want lasagna.

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FINALE

THE NEXT MORNING

i looked at my phone and there’s this message:

“hey sis!.. outing.. outing. nate’s going to invite his best-est friend. so. i’m inviting you. it’s hmm. let’s just say. bestfriends outing. what tha ya tink? please.please. pretty please..”

OMG. i smell something fishy..

“Hey sis. don’t you dare set me up erkey?..”

“hey. it’s not like that.!.. ”

“erkey. when?”

“this afternoon. see yah at the bus stop sis!”

“wth?..”

and she didn’t reply. er. i hate clarisse when she’s like that. as if there’s no other swimming pool here. OMG. erkey. how am i supposed to fix my things? err. wth! i remember, this coming monday is, aaahh.. Removal exam. OMG.

“hey sis. i don’t think today is the best day for the bestfriends outing or whatever you called it.”

“and why sis?..”

“can’t you see. we have removal exam this coming monday?..”

“uh-oh. sis. it was moved. thursday.”

“ah. erkey. erkey. see yah at the bus stop.”

ahh yea. how i wish it will move again to monday. huhu. hate it! i don’t want to go. but then, erkey. i’ll go. huh.

AT THE BUS STOP

i saw nate, and he immediately wave to me. and then clarisse. and then. other guy. he looked familiar. but then i walked towards them to see the guy upclose.

“hi–” the guy said.

“OMG. i think i know you. haha! luis!–” me.

“missy. haha!” luis.

“so?. wait. do you and nate?”

“yes. i’m his best-est friend. ”

“OMG. nate. why didn’t you tell me you know luis.”

“wait! are we, what?” clarisse asked.

“erkey, i’ll tell you later.”

just as i thought. you know. luis is my neighbor then, then they moved to manila because his dad was promoted. yeahyeahyeah. well since then we haven’t talked till now. the world’s getting smaller and smaller.

i sat beside luis so i can chat with him along the way. he changed. from the ‘bubwit style’ to erkey. he was cool. haha. hmm. but nate’s more cool. erkey. whatever.

“so, missy? how are you?” luis asked.

“well. i was kinda busy then. just finished reading the latest book that i bought and then i think we’ll going to have removal exam this coming thursday. and then”

he laughed.

“hey, what’s with that?-”

“you haven’t change. hmm. i mean. you’re the same old missy by heart. haha”

“corny. so where was i?” i laughed.

“let me tell you something..” he said

“whut?”

“you’re much much pretty this time-” he smiled.

“and you’re kinda corny and whatever this time.” i laughed.

and then we laughed. erkey. goes nothing. erkey. let me tell you something guys. luis is, erkey. when we’re young he used to tease me and then before we separate our stupid life he ended up confessing that i was so cute when i’m crying. yeahnow. same old baduy puppy love.

“so, how are you then?” i asked.

“well. we lived well there. at first t’was hard to cope. i don’t have friends. ok. i have friends. but i don’t have the missy around haha.”

“i bet you missed me. ahaha”

“yes. i miss being  pain in the butt for you. hahha.”

“yes. aww. how i wish we could go back then, so i can show you my real super powers and you can’t do anything to fight it. wahaha.”

“you’re silly missy.” he smiled.

melting point–

“and you’re corny luis.” i laughed.

were very noisy. yes. everbody’s looking at us every single minute. i forgot about the nate’s incident last night. all i care about is. luis. my neighbor.childhood pain in the butt is back. honestly saying. aside from clarisse. he’s the other person who can show my childish side.

i was very sleepy and luis offered me his shoulder. i was not hesitant. it rains outside, i was feeling so cold. he then offered me his jacket, comfy. and the ride goes on.

THAT NIGHT. AT THE BEACH.

we were at the campfire made by none other than the pain in the butt. we all talked about the most silly thing in the world. haha. and then suddenly,

“hey nate. what’s the real score between you and clarisse?” luis asked.

“huh? hmm.” clarisse said.

“oh. c’mon dude. change topic.” nate said.

i looked at nate. and then he looked at me.

“hey.what’s wrong? if there is really a score then spill it up. it will actually ends there.” luis said.

“erkey. me and clarisse. is 100% us” nate said.

whut the hell? 100% us? without telling me? i looked at clarisse and her face is like. sis i’ll talk to you later. sorry for not telling you.. erkey. i get it. i just smiled.

“okay.. so.. clarisse. do you find nate what?” luis asked

“i find him.. a pain in the butt too.” clarisse laughed.

“well wattayaknow. hahaha”luis asked.

“im going to pee. wait guys.” clarisse said.

“do you want me to go with you sis?” i asked.

“no.no. as if i’m a child. haha.” she said.

“erkey. be back asap. haha”i said.

“what the hell.” and then clarisse run.

i thought clarisse was going to be back asap but it’s past 10mins and she’s not here.. err. im feeling kinda akward here.

“hey missy. want some?” nate offered me coke.

“ner. thanks.” i said.

“btw, missy. if you don’t mind. nate told me about a girl, do you know her?” luis asked.

a big.. UHOH

“a girl?” i asked.

“nate, oh c’mon. you didn’t tell missy about that girl?” he asked.

“huh?-” nate said.

“oh c’mon guys. nate. missy’s the bestfriend of clarisse, how come.–” sudden stop.

luis facial expression become more like the fishy thing. i bet he knows that it is me. the girl he’s asking for.

“erkey. i get it. so, missy, you’re the girl.” he just smiled.

“ahm. it was. yea know. it’s me and nate’s misunderstanding..” i said

“well. it’s not!” nate shouted.

“who! calm down guys.” luis said

“oh c’mon nate. i thought we settled things up.” i said

“missy.” nate said

“ok guys. cut it out.”luis said

and then nate walked away. i don’t know. but there this something inside of me that wants to follow him.. i sob and cry and luis saw all every little details.

“so, it’s true. it is really you. missy. how come you let clarisse won this game?” luis asked.

“luis. it’s not a game. it’s a matter of love and friendship.” i said

“missy. if clarisse is really you’re friend. she’s willing to give up nate just for you. hmm.” luis said

“but im the one who set them up. ergh. it’s all your fault. ”

“ok. i’m sorry. looked. i’ll fix this ok?”

“no need.”

“ok. i’ll just stay by your side till you stop crying..”

i bet luis doesn’t want to hurt me or something. i bet he just want to know the truth between what really is behind us three. i told luis all that happen and i know he’ll understand. he confessed again that upon hearing my name when nate’s telling him all about it. he was really excited in seeing me and plan to court me. but then seeing me like this. we just ate all that things and preferred to stay by my side.

t’was 2AM then. i can’t see clarisse. where on earth did she go? she said she’s just going to pee. huh. that long? wth is her pee. erkey. maybe she’s on the room now. maybe i should take a lil rest then

AT THE ROOM

when i entered the room. i saw clarisse lying on the bed with the blanket on. i jumped into her bed.

“hey sis. you said you’ll just pee. why is it that you didn’t-” hear her crying. “hey sis! what happened to you?” i asked.

“sis. i feel so miserable. ” crying..

“wth sis? what is it? is it nate? oh that freaking bastard. wwwait. i’ll talk to him.”

“NO!” she shouted and get out from the blanky.

“erkey. so tell me. why are you crying?–” i asked.

“i heard it all.. how come you didn’t tell me that nate confessed. how come sis.”

“sis. i thought of you then. i don’t want to hurt you.”

“but then sis. i don’t want to hurt you either.”

“oh c’mon sis. don’t mind me,see, am i happy seeing you like that? don’t think of me o-”

“we broke up.” crying

“WTH CLARISSE.!”i bursted.

“it’s just that, i don’t want to lose the both of you..–” she hugged me.

argh. i don’t what is this, really happening. but then clarisse moved me. from the simple thing she heard, she just made some sort of decision that i’m sure she’ll going to regret. i’m hurting clarisse now. but what can i do. if i said something to make her feel better. she’ll say something for me to think that she was right all along then.

i really don’t know what to do. i don’t know what to say,, what will happen next. clarisse is a fool. i never thought she’ll going to be like this. ergh.

“sis. i’m sorry for taking nate-” she said

“OMG. sis. you didn’t take nate. i gave nate to you.”

“oh cmon sis.” she laughed.

“erkey. now. what will happen next?” i asked.

“i want you and nate be together.” she said.

“no sis. i don’t want to.”

silence–

“why? we haven’t kissed yet. hahah”

“it’s not funny clarisse.”

“erkey. so sis. what do you really want to happen?” - clarisse asked.

“i don’t know. im so confused.”

“wait. luis also confessed aight.”

“yes.”

“so that’s why you’re confused?” she laughed

“no im not! i like luis but i dont love him”

“and you don’t like nate that why you love him”

“oh cmon!.. let’s just sleep okay?..” and i turned off the lights.

“sis. if you don’t want one of them.. hmm. can i have them both?.. wahah. just kidding..”

“clarrise cut it out. just sleep.”

actually. i can’t sleep. i was confused. i know what i want. but, there’s this something that. argh. erkey. i really act stupid. i really don’t know. i just can’t sleep. i’ll better think other things. better think an idea to surpass this stupid things.

THE NEXT MORNING

everbody’s quiet. i saw nate and clarisse talking at the seashore. then i saw clarisse smiled, she then look at the window and saw me. nate’s also. wave at me. and pretending like there’s nothing wrong. i wave at him too. they walking towards here..

im finding luis. where that pain in the butt go– then i saw a letter in my desk.

Missy,

well, this is me, your pain in the but. leaving you again for the second time. dad called me a while ago and he wants me to go back to manila right away.. i went to your room to said goodbye but your still asleep as if you’re dreaming something. haha–

i’m sorry about the thing last night. i never thought it would hurt you that much. seeing you crying makes me feel worse. i bet you’re thinking about i said when we we’re young.. “i feel really really happy seeing you crying and weeping to death. ” haha. silly me then. but now. it hurts.. haha. yes. corny. baduy. watever.

missy, i was serious about what i said last night. if ever you and nate didn’t work things out. im here okay? i saved my number on your phone named PAIN IN THE BUTT.haha.

see yah then some time.

PAIN IN THE BUTT,

LUIS

luis is such a silly pain in the butt. haha.

Knock– knock–

it’s nate.

“hey. can we talk?” he asked

“yea. ” i said

“hmm. im sorry about last night and about clarisse’s–”

“no. it’s nothing.”

“missy. im a hypocrite if i’ll tell you that maybe we should be friends-only and-”

“no nate. i mean. i don’t want to-yeahknow.-”

“but, missy, i really really like you..”

“erkey. i like you too nate but., i guess i’m not really ready for some sort of commitment. i don’t want to hurt you..”

“missy. you’re hurting me.”

“and you’re hurting me too. can’t you see nate’s. it not as simple as what you think.”

silence–

i saw nate’s facial expression and he was thinking deep.deep.deep. i don’t know. i really want to hug him but i don’t want to. as i said. it’s not as simple as that.. i feel like. i’m lacking something. i feel like im not the right one for nate. argh. i don’t know. argh. goes nothing.

“nate– i’m saying these to you because. i feel like i was not the right girl for you. you know what i mean.”

“missy. you are. that’s why i’m here.-”

“look nate. i don’t really want you to think that deep erkey. haha”

“oh cmon missy..-”

“erkey nate. here’s a deal. after a year or two. if you or i don’t have that special someone. we can be. erkey?”

“that long? 2 years?”

“yes. if you really think that i was really really the right girl and the right princess for you. you’re willing to wait. aight.”

“youre really getting me crazy missy.”

“i bet you understand me nate. huh?”

“erkey. and after 2 years. i’ll be with you no matter what. no. no. starting now. i’ll be with you no matter what.”

“whatever you say nate-so, let’s be friends then?”

“erkey, friends.”

i don’t know if it’s me. i was always playing a game. but then. in this game. i’ll see if, how long will nate wait for me. how much he loves me. guys. i just want to see he’s willing to be there for me. and yea. for us clarisse no matter what.

and by the way guys. remember the book? what can you say?..Ö-missy

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i bet you’re kinda. ‘bitin’ there and asking why the ending is like that. i want you guys to yeahknow. make your own ending of my story..

thankyou very much-haha.. lol!

Xoxo, Ren

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